EVERYTHING I POST IS NOT ABOUT YOU.

JFC. STOP ASSUMING JFSDJFKLRESD SHUT THE FUCK UP!

obviously i am all for friends in other states, BUT I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOUR STUPID CONVERSATIONS WITH HIM. JFC. THEY’RE NOT EVEN FUNNY BECAUSE IDG HALF OF THE JOKES.

what happened when we used to actually TALK? yk NOT ABOUT HIM?

lol it sucks a lot when you like someone else and they’re far away.

dear silly’s heart, how stupid are you? no love anymore, me.

l o l omg.

lol why am i crying oh my god fuck fuck fuck tredsfghyjtrfd

I’m on the fence right now, and I can’t tell if it’s too early to land on the other side yet.

one minute, I’m the girl who can feel the music lift me up and make me feel brand new again.

the next? I’m thinking on the wrong side… well I guess it’s not wrong, just… not something I talk about much. then I snap out of it and go back to my old self.

what the hell am I doing?

what this song means to me.

no one will understand why i forced myself to stop listening to it two years ago.

no one will understand why i smile and cry at the same time when i listen.

i sang it with you on our bus ride from the hotel to hong kong international, with the boys listening. our voices together are really amazing. no one will understand why i called you when it only rained and placed this song on repeat.

i haven’t seen you in two years.

almost three.

we miss you, i hope you know. i wonder if you miss us too.

you were one of the first to help save me years ago.

i still have your letter, your number, your note in the notebook, and i feel like you’re still here.

something tells me you’re long gone though, and never coming back.

like you don’t fucking update your twitter and annoy us all the time.

lol don’t fucking complain.

we have to write a persuasive essay about any topic we want.

i automatically picked gay rights… and then the four girls around me were all “YEAH WE’RE GONNA DO IT TOO!!!!” whatever, so i’m still doing it either way. the one girl was like “yeah dnw my gay bff to be husband-less in a few years” WHO SAYS THAT WTF. i can see supporting them, but that just seems like you’re doing it because the world’s a bit open minded compared to twenty years ago. why am i going to write about it?

because day after day, i am called certain things that are used as insults because of my sexuality.

because i am TIRED of hearing “gay” being used instead of “stupid” or “lame”.

because a lot of my family could really care less about me now that i came out a few years ago.

because if i actually DO really fall for a girl who loves me just as much back, i’d like to be able to actually marry her, and not hide in fear of discrimination.

it just got me mad that the other girls did it to fit in~, while every time we fucking have essays like this, i always make the topic about gay rights.

maybe i just got angry over nothing, but if you’re gonna support something, shut up and fucking support it. don’t just do it because it’s cool~.

but you have helped me find my old personality so fast, and dsfgkd

THANK YOU.

SO.

MUCH.

one day, I will meet you and tell you this and it will be something you’ve heard more than enough but you need to hear it from me.

someday.